The Coming Holidays & My Muse

These 2 weeks has been amazing,
shocking in some ways, like today (more later)
and surprising in others.

The hubs has been nothing short of dramatic
which is super unusual
coz the 'drama queen' is usually me.
I have been upstaged.
And haha, the feeling is odd.
I cannot fathom what has happened to him
but in some secret way,
I am enjoying it....
Its like we have another way of connecting,
he and i...

He got so pumped up when I agreed to go on a hike
with him and Kita today... he was actually grinning, glowing
and acted every bit like a proud trooper.
Ok, so me being the one that is Not-so-into-Mother Nature type
did get squeamish at the very last min,
my heart was palpitating like crazy
and I was on the verge of just giving him the excuse
that my tummy was aching like there was no tomorrow
but, I decided to suck it up!

So off we went, my hubs being my hubs,
despite having all the technology in the world to serve him,
he relished in the likes of deciding that Diary Farm Hut had parking,
so we shall begin our acension from there....
BIG MISTAKE!!! HUGE!!!!
I never climbed so many steep steps / stairs,
walked on so many slippery terrains in my Life!
We should have just started from the usual Bukit Timah Hill path
wah lau eh.... act smart lor.
At some points, I had thoughts of rolling down the hill
and at some other points, I secretly hoped we don't come across
some dead body, the place is so akin to CRIMINAL MINDS / CSI...
I cannot help it, been watching a lot of TV. LIKE.A.LOT

And for the life of me,
I felt like I was in JAPAN HOUR
walking thru the forest or in army,
marching away with my hubs ahead cheering both Kita and myself on,
and Kita, sweet Kita, God bless his soul,
was so gentlemanly, he waited behind,
made sure I was ok,
basically he did everything in the handbook right... haha
if there ever was a handbook on how to woo a girl,
this Japanese dude sure got it all right
At some point, I even ran up the steep terrains.
I think I went mad. Haiz...

I feel fitter, no doubt.
The air smelt great in there...
but emotionally, I think I was a wuss.
I was swamped with mixed feelings upon concluding my hike.
On one hand, proud about my accomplishment
and on the other hand, I wished I had better stamina,
I want to try this again,
but I wanna train.

So, instead of the usual routine runs,
I shall also go hike once in a while,
just to change up the routine I have.
And to ensure I get better and hahaha, lose MORE weight lar!!!
I am so tired now...
cannot fathom how I can hold a decent conversation at dinner with my family
or even seem energetic, for fear of letting my mum feel less important.

Anyways, work wise, things have been a whirlwind.
Some words to sum up how I feel...
Mountain / Insanity / Pile / Deadlines
I mean, I have seen this level of stress before,
just that, haha, I wished I had a "honeymoon" period
you know, before the torrential hurricane sweeps you up
and carries you to somewhere else....
there is no stopping, before I can plan,
I have to do, sometimes, i feel robotic.
Almost surreal.

I keep telling myself,
my social life is saved for the weekends mostly, for now.
But when the weekends hit,
all I wanna do is sleep. Like a bear in winter.
Or just run and dance, workout.

I dont even have the mood / energy to play my FB games.
I know, i know, lame right? At my age, FB games...
aiya, judge all you want, I don't care.
The games take my mind off a lot...

And my Fridays, supposedly date nights with the hubs,
see me wanting to head home to sleep....
anyways, I really really appreciate my muse, my hubs
for being the ultra sweet candy he is...
for sending me flowers when he knows it brightens my day,
pink roses always puts a permanent smile on my face..
and for being the sweetest fellow I know.
No one treats me better than you baby.
I want us to remain like this, forever.

And, I seriously hope, I got my Christmas pressies all covered.
Hope everyone is covered and I did not miss out any persons.
I got the list written, but no time to go shop as yet.

And on a side note, both Kita and Jean just came back from Korea
and they both got me all my favourite items,
without me telling them what they are!
They are such dolls!!!!!! Love them to bits....
Love my close friends who can read me and love me.

Breaking Dawn was dishy...
I mean, the way Edward Cullen loves Bella
and the smouldering HOT Jacob....
Hubba Hubba.... hahahaha
the fight scene was AWESOME!
So was the "other" scene. Teehehehe~~
Darren was a real friend, he had my back
I am just so blessed.
To have such great friends around me,
I don't know what i did to deserve them
but they are so willing to be there for me.
I can only Thank God for them.

Anyways, this trooper has to go niapp now.
Goodnight World!

Xoxo

The One with Contentment & then some....

You know how tough it is to find someone who has chemistry with you
and somehow, seems normal to you,
and then realizing how they make your world a better place
and how you can act all foolish and silly in front of them
and how they try to make you a better person in more ways than one
and then, you sometimes hate their guts and balls
on days, even feel like murdering them if it is legit to.

That's Love for you, in the very real sense.
Where we try to soothe out all insecurities in any given relationship
where we try not to kill each other on certain days
and where we love each other and hold on fast to the other half,
as much and often and as deeply as we can,
as we recall their kindness and tenderness to us.

I am so glad to be in a contended place
and in a position where I understand my husband better
and where I know he loves me and mostly accepts me for who I am
without trying to change me too much,
though i honestly need to say,
he does get into the mode of being my dad / mum / PE Teacher / maid / Ahmad
from time to time....
but I love him to dear bits.....
There is nothing more, at the end of a work day
where I am all fazed or confused or emo or angry
that I would like to really see, (most days)
and then I would talk to him and go on with a barrage of stuff
whether related or not, whether nice sounding or not,
on who did me wrong
or who is acting like some dumbass at work
or who and who is dating,
we sort of enjoy the banter and then will reach some conclusion, as a couple,
sometimes swearing we should never get ourselves into that fix
and thank God for each other (most times).

The past 3 years of marriage has been interesting.
It is a roller coaster, there are minor adjustments between us now and then
but we are at a stable point now, a point which begets a lot of people asking us,
"When are you having kids?"

Let's put it this way...
as selfish as it sounds,
both of us love children, don't get us wrong,
but they are not for us, not now and probably not ever.
There is nothing wrong with our "machines"
as the health check has put across before we got married.
But, we just love love Looovveeee the freedom and power
to go anywhere we wish, without the concern
or nagging thoughts as to,
Who is gonna look after the kiddo? Or I will miss the kiddo...

Look, there are some couples who marry and do enjoy couplehood as it is,
and some who really buy into the notion that getting married is to have babies
well, to each his own, really.
We shall always stick to the same reply everytime,
WE ARE NOT READY and do not want to be tied down.  

As it is, marriages in Singapore are diving into a downhill mode
with divorces on the rise constantly,
kids added to that equation will make it more challenging for any couple.
That is why, I really enjoy my partner and the activities and the people we meet
whenever we want to and can now.

Just a reflection.....

Let's Count The Ways of ....

Well, I did say this blog was defunk in 2009.... but after shifting thru a few different blogs (mostly personal) I decided to re-use what works. This addy.

What better way then to start by summing what took place over the last 3 years.

I got married. got happy. put on some weight. got sick. feel more at peace with myself. lost a good friend. got to know more new friends. got judged. loved some and hated others and then some.

am now at a place where I am contend. or maybe its too early to be so?

But I am.

Lost some weight, intend to carry on and got back into an industry I enjoy.

Life really threw some serious lemons. But I am making good lemonade out of them. :)

BKK wait for me, I am finally hitting on you. And then back to Taiwan next year, a land where I can fall in love, daily. Did I mention how much i love Taiwan?

Just the mere mention of the place brings to mind, rainbows, unicorns, smelly tofu, strawberries, friendly people and the posers!!! Not necessarily in that order.

 

The extravaganza shopping and pigging out! The cool weather of March and the doe-eyed lasses. So far, I love Taiwan more than the other places I have been to, it calls to my soul. My happy place.

 

To start saving I must!!! Else, how am I suppose to buy all the pleasures that tickle my fancy bone???

 

Till then, tata!