You know how tough it is to find someone who has chemistry with you
and somehow, seems normal to you,
and then realizing how they make your world a better place
and how you can act all foolish and silly in front of them
and how they try to make you a better person in more ways than one
and then, you sometimes hate their guts and balls
on days, even feel like murdering them if it is legit to.
That's Love for you, in the very real sense.
Where we try to soothe out all insecurities in any given relationship
where we try not to kill each other on certain days
and where we love each other and hold on fast to the other half,
as much and often and as deeply as we can,
as we recall their kindness and tenderness to us.
I am so glad to be in a contended place
and in a position where I understand my husband better
and where I know he loves me and mostly accepts me for who I am
without trying to change me too much,
though i honestly need to say,
he does get into the mode of being my dad / mum / PE Teacher / maid / Ahmad
from time to time....
but I love him to dear bits.....
There is nothing more, at the end of a work day
where I am all fazed or confused or emo or angry
that I would like to really see, (most days)
and then I would talk to him and go on with a barrage of stuff
whether related or not, whether nice sounding or not,
on who did me wrong
or who is acting like some dumbass at work
or who and who is dating,
we sort of enjoy the banter and then will reach some conclusion, as a couple,
sometimes swearing we should never get ourselves into that fix
and thank God for each other (most times).
The past 3 years of marriage has been interesting.
It is a roller coaster, there are minor adjustments between us now and then
but we are at a stable point now, a point which begets a lot of people asking us,
"When are you having kids?"
Let's put it this way...
as selfish as it sounds,
both of us love children, don't get us wrong,
but they are not for us, not now and probably not ever.
There is nothing wrong with our "machines"
as the health check has put across before we got married.
But, we just love love Looovveeee the freedom and power
to go anywhere we wish, without the concern
or nagging thoughts as to,
Who is gonna look after the kiddo? Or I will miss the kiddo...
Look, there are some couples who marry and do enjoy couplehood as it is,
and some who really buy into the notion that getting married is to have babies
well, to each his own, really.
We shall always stick to the same reply everytime,
WE ARE NOT READY and do not want to be tied down.
As it is, marriages in Singapore are diving into a downhill mode
with divorces on the rise constantly,
kids added to that equation will make it more challenging for any couple.
That is why, I really enjoy my partner and the activities and the people we meet
whenever we want to and can now.
Just a reflection.....
