say U say Me - an Abstract Poem

the impending onslaught

sounds like a real dread

anxieties and expectations fly

rage surges off the handle

wild thoughts creep in

pain tugs at my inside

total prepared-ness is near impossible

why now, why you and why me?

a war is raging within me

causing me to be sick

sick and tired

craved in, crazed out

barely there

stoning. . .

inflammations galore

sores open, rearing its ugly head

dark clouds shroud my eyes

my silver lining seems obscure

glitzy life... dizzy with insanity

here i am trying to remain

as accustomed and habitual as i can

can i??

I have no inclination to find out now

not anytime soon.

can I have my indulgences,

my fantasies and lures drawn in

it is raining on my parade

I need a good brolly

God...

U be that Brolly

i am drowning

desperately, painstakingly.

Nuances of this life is dissipating fast!

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The above poem is suppose to be "Qim"

don try to get it if you don't.